What have i been up to

There is something to be said for the feeling of satisfaction i get when i work on art for 2 hours or more. i feel more satisfied with a small product of sketches of artwork, teasing my art drive than i do with a good 40+ hour work week! (( 9 hour days with a 1 hour lunch... bleah)) which bring up the chronic question. why do you do it Nami? if you HATE it, why do you work at NON art jobs. Why do i REGRET driving to work every morning, sad that i will not spend more that 2 hours on art today?

its security. i didn't feel secure with my art to get a job. (( I'm so there now, i just need a body of work)) but also ... loans they be due. I'm now ready to bite the bullet and work my ass off for art. my goal is to dedicate 20 hours a week to art. starting with 10, then pushing it each week. :D

It's been a great vacation for me. not that I've taken time off life wise, but art wise? oh i have. BUT the recharge was MUCH needed. it feels SO incredibly good to just sit and let stuff flow. I've generated quite the back log to post here, and frankly I'm excited. I've pretty much decided to work on my art now. i guess before was a test. (( i may have mentioned this... in fact i tend to say the same thing over and over again which i guess means I'm not lying...)) this is a decision I've made and a contract I'm entering into with myself. just as I've worked on my spiritual self, now is time to continue this trend and work on art and self!

I feel i can push myself now. i see the strength i have in friends and family. (( even some co-workers)) its amazing really you hear about all these kids who's parents only tell them how they will fail, but mine REALLY and truly want to see me secede. and my friends as well you guys are awesome. it makes me wanna cry when i see/feel/know I'm this appreciated that you guys will give me this support. i just a sappy person in general but honestly i feel so honored to have such acquaintances. ;_; I'm tearing up just typing this... LORDS I'M A SAP!

I am totally getting better at spelling. SWEET! my dyslexic brain is starting to accept English! HUZZAH.

If you take a peek below i have set up a list of things to accomplish. those will show up here, as well as on DA. ( http://naminational.deviantart.com/ ) i am in need to work with Pochi on how to tie updates to my ACTUAL Gallery website. HURR. AND i need to do a seraphic comic or 2. ;_; ::sob:: there is to much to doooooooooo. (( but it WILL get done!))

ON TO ART